I don’t know what to do anymore!! If I should drive into the river and be gone or shoot myself in the head oh the possibilities to pick from I love it down here yet I hate it! I hate the feeling I get all the things running though running in and out of my head!! I am so fucking lost in this big fucking world! Why can’t it be smaller? Why can’t u have what u want? If it’s not that big of a deal? Why do things have to be so god dam hard?!?! i wish I could just close my eyes and every one be happy! Why the hell is that so hard to ask for? I mean do things have to be so difficult if someone says no it means no damit! Do things have to be this way? My fact of the day I thought it was interesting You know at least 3 ppl a day commit suicide per state and 1000 ppl attempt. People who have attempted more than 5 times will try it there whole life! Unless they get help! I dont like being lost not at all!